You mean how we plan the defeat ? And why planing the invisible ?

How do you plan your goals?

Hmm 🤔 why we should plan a goal ?

Because everyone accomplished had a perfect plan right ? Well no ..:

When I was in younger age , I use to say 2 things I fear from ( love & children )

I doubt in goals and I doubt that we in control of our lives and what’s coming next .

And since my life was an alone life since teenage times , I had always this thinking of , why planing ? when I do not even guarantee tomorrow or the next hour …

So when I reached to 30 s every plan I have put and every goal I have put failed and some failed with loss and debits other failed due human behavior , and some failed lack of mentorship or a mentor figure .

And till one of sudden a part of me that was never before moving got butterflies 🦋

Yes my heart ! Am trying to be short in here , as when it comes to an artist heart , we will never finish typing .

Trust me if you have not felt that energy that without even looking at its pulling you like magnet above the ground …. Yes that’s how it happened .

So then I said , I need to do a plan before too late , this feelings is only once and what I was always craving for !

How did I plan the defeat ? Or the goal you asking about .

I looked at the past failed attempt in whatever goal I wished to happen , but careful here ( non of the formal failed goals had anything to do with butterflies heart , but situations and humans disappointing and betrays , so I also had habits as we all have when we single and some behaviors that needed me to cut of and put all in !!

Just like when you stand on the roulette table and put all in one n the number that you believing it’s the forever win , and even a taxi fare back home was also included ( meaning the have not even plan or even expected a loss that’s how I felt when I drew the plan with happiness confidence and blindly believed this is perfection … and I need to stop partying , stop drinking , stop whatever was negative and focus with whatever I had on this plan that if I tell you , I felt the happiest and the luckiest person alive and if I tell you , for this butterfly heart feel flew 18000 klm x 3 times in a month , believe , as this was the plan I ever wanted to work on .

And arrived to where my heart got the butterflies as if no past I had with all I had from the past in my account and baggage .

And I swam in a beautiful illusion even the red flags 🚩 I saw as cherry trees and the darkness of it was darker than the pace where the titanic sank , was to me skies and clouds .

Till one day and after 6 years

After all the energy all the efforts Al the sacrifices , I saw the casinos guys carrying me out of the casino and throwing me on the road , while raining and cold , while I did not even had a plan for this , with a short and ti-shirt on in the cold , looking at them surprised and I asked why ? What happened ?

Respond came This is a lesson for you , but before they said that , I saw them pulling away their face skin like a leather stretchy mask and I start see something that is very scary a beast a monster a devil a very ugly one , something has no emotions and feelings ..and am like what ? How , why now when I have put everything I had and did Al what I did for this butterfly story , another respond came and it was People change !!!

And I have watched them taking what was most valuable and walking slowly in-front of my eyes back inside the casino where my shock and defeat could not get me of the ground for a very long time as all the energy used nothing not even 1 percent was left to reach to a charging point . The rest Of this story or it’s details remains untyped till further notice or TBC

Readers as some of you read my responds , it’s always from the heart and from my mind to you with honesty and with a goal that am planing right now by being here with you writing daily. Is deliver a message a positive message to avoid the younger to hit this blocks and obstacles, and from a prospective that I even doubted after this happened , and after all the failed planned goals that are nothing compared the last planing and nothing to remember but 1 story how did I plan this epic defeat ? And how butterflies turned to mini bats ad how all the honesty and sacrifices and whatever I had from material and mental gone in the drain and just only when I decided to plan right , or end up I planned the most epic defeat in human history , that self worth was gone , self believes was collapsed , prospective burned down , and just like in ICU .

Now here I still believe I did the right plan and I did the right thing as am typing this as no tater what , birds beside my room I fed once , they came daily check on me , not saying other animals . And imagine all this happened across borders , that you are in intensive care and no one there but the birds that am feeding now daily .

The lesson here and please am speaking of a prospective that I doubt a prospective of an artist where there is lies , no hate , no Dispassion , no betrays , no cheat , and nothing like people change !!! I may be wrong but one thing I can tell is he readers now , 99 percent we are not in control of our lives and there is a higher source that puts ever human on a direction and goal according to something that is linked to a past life .

My message here to ever overtime never go all in on anything in this planet of beasts , and always worse case scenarios must be prepared and we come to this world alone without anyone asking us if we even want to come , and will die alone , keep your connection with self and believe whatever has happened was yours but not your fault is you did the right . Get up or get out of the icu and walk you will see then what and why this has happened and next plan make sure to put inside it a statement ( people change ) .

But one thing I never planned and never expected . Is having few people pressing the like bottom on this app , as years been with thousands of friends on other social media , I never had so much likes ( 17 likes today ) to me it’s 17 m and that’s a sign also for you not to take planing serous as there is always another plan for you made according to what you deserve . And thank you for whoever understands my typing and always know am happy to share honest with you and please forgive me broken English . I even downloaded an app speak to type converter to type better for you my thoughts , but I have not used yet !!! I’ll tell you why I’m my next answer after 24 hours . 5 am here and if you read all this , and got the message and got your like . Love you and nothing can make us stop loving or change if we born for a higher purpose. ( hm )

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